“There is always going to be someone idiotic enough to turn up for a ride even in weather like this,” was what my bike dealer said when I popped into the shop on Wednesday afternoon. It was pouring down with rain and the forecast for the evening, in time for the weekly group ride, was not looking any better. “Well, let’s see… we are going to ride together, by the way, no splitting into groups today… ah, the internet says there’ll be less rain to the north-east. North-east it is then, on a relatively flat route.” To which my only reply was: “So, what you’re saying is that you have just convinced me to get on my bike and ride tonight?” The answer was a shrug, followed by: “Don’t forget your overshoes. And better put on that rain jacket that you have.”
Yes, the rain jacket. I have bought a new one to be worn on my road bike. I have to admit it has a rather tight fit. But I was told that that is the way your clothes should be on a road bike. It has to do with being more aerodynamic and stuff. The label of the jacket actually said something like “breathable” and “atmungsaktiv”. And when the zip is closed I am able to breathe. A shallow breath once every hour or so. This whole “active breathing” thing is a bit of an overstatement, I have to admit. But the advertising people have to put something on the label, don’t they? Still, why did I buy it? One, the other rain jacket I have definitely is far too big by now and would only flap around wildly (and I doubt it would adequately cover my lower back on the road bike). Two, this new one was a bargain (at least in comparison). And the selling argument my bike dealer offered: “But didn’t you say you wanted to lose some more weight anyway?” To which I answered with some disgruntled mumbling but, in the end, I had to concur. And yes, the jacket already fits better than the first time I tried it on some weeks ago (although I wished I would be losing more weight faster at present). At the same time, I am also working hard on improving my apnoea skills…
When I stepped out of the house with my road bike, clad in said rain jacket, short rain trousers, and overshoes, it was still raining. Heavily. And when I rolled up at our meeting point a couple of minutes later, I was greeted by a cheerful: “Told you that there are always some idiots ready to ride, no matter what!” There you have it – I am now officially an idiot. But I was not the only one, we were a total of four.
So we set out in the rain and I began to notice that subconsciously I was starting to act out my safety routine again. I kept my distance to the other three and felt apprehensive to go at a higher speed. It is one thing to tell yourself at home that your riding skills will only benefit from a ride in unfavourable weather conditions, and another to actually be out on the road. My bike dealer tried to install more confidence in me by telling me that my wheels should still have around 80% of the grip that they have in dry conditions as well as by giving me tips on how to break in the wet. And I tried to tell myself that I needed to be more confident or else I would eventually risk an accident just by feeling insecure.
I sensed that I was starting to mentally tire myself by mulling over this and after around 10 km, while stopping at a traffic light, I said that I was thinking about turning back. Which was met by a plain: “No.” Beg your pardon? Well, according to the others there was no need for me to cut the ride short as it was starting to clear up and I was promised they would reduce their speed somewhat so it would be easier for me to keep up. At the same time my bike dealer also publicly revoked my status as a novice rider. (Thanks for the compliment.)
And indeed the weather did clear up shortly thereafter. For about half an hour. And when the rain picked up again (more forcefully than before), we were too far gone on our way for me to think about quitting again. I accepted my fate and trudged on even as the water was washing over the pavement in ripples. Oh, that sounds more downbeat than it should. Actually, I am glad that I pulled through for the whole two and a half hours – even though I felt mentally drained by the end, I also felt elated because I was braving the elements. I overcame some of my anxiety and I feel that my cycling skills have indeed improved (for example, I was cycling much closer to the others later on, without feeling outright alarmed). However, I am not too eager to ride in conditions like that every day.